feelin' a bit crazy! (literally)

I tried a little experiment over the weekend. Normally I take a 20mg adderall tablet twice a day - once when I get up around 7 and again around 2 - and it does me pretty well. Due to the downright silly levels of stress last week however, I decided to try taking half a tablet on Saturday and Sunday instead of the full to see if maybe it would slow me down a bit and help me relax. (God I love admitting to taking FEWER drugs to relax.)

Well. It slowed me down. A lot. My mind was all over the map this weekend. I was having mad problems holding conversations left and right. It slowed me down so much, in fact, that I just plumb forgot to take the second half pill Sunday afternoon. It got to the point where I was talking to one of my roommates and wound up sitting and staring at her thinking "should I be saying something right now?" (As it turned out she was waiting for a response.) I'm back on my regular dosage now, but I'm still feeling the effects of being off. It really is a very strange feeling, and it reminds me why I used to be so frightened to talk to people. Because I'd wind up staring at them with a silly blank look on my face wondering "are they waiting for me to talk?"

So now I'm still a bit off, but getting better. Fortunately, it's Monday. Meaning it's burger night. Meaning a variety of friends will be converging upon Matisse for burgers, beer (possibly veggie burgers, depending on the friends that show up), and some much needed catching up. Then back to our front porch for a little bit of hookah to wrap up the evening. Yay!!