I'm enjoying this concept of blogging photos with stories attached! I may have to continue.
Unlike my last picture story though, this one isn't quite as pleasant. I was in a poor, poor mood at the time, as can be seen in my sulky expression. What a pouter!
Thursday, November 8, 2007
Monday, November 5, 2007
inexplicable
UUUUGGGGGHHHHHHH.
Stated (loudly) in true Peanuts fashion: head tilted straight back nearly 45 degrees, mouth open to the size a grapefruit, tonsils (or tongue, never could figure out which) wiggling near the back of the throat. God bless Peanuts. Charlie Brown is my hero. Truly he is. Which is why this has been the desktop on my office computer for so long.
I am completely, utterly off today, and I do not know why. I've been running according to my schedule, and it's been going well. I logged 17.64 miles this week. I've been rockin' the Lake Shore trail, hardcore. I actually got nearly 7 hours of sleep last night, which is a bit more than I've been getting, but not so much as to significantly throw me off. I've been eating well, keeping in shape, etc. In other words, I am at a loss to explain my extraordinarily flighty brain functions today. I don't like that.
The only postulation I can formulate is that perhaps I've been too … inward facing? … as of late. I've been focused pretty heavily on training (as I don't really feel like injuring myself), working to keep my clean (so far so good!), and reading voraciously – on the bus to and from work, in my room, on the front porch, everywhere. At the moment I'm jumping around between 'The Black Swan' – a philosophy-based look at the practical sides and potential dangers of relying on predictions based upon the empirical data of inherently random events – 'Innovation Nation' – discussing how and why this country is slowly losing its place globally as the leader of innovation – and 3-4 Cato Institute reports on everything from current political language, the rise of doublespeak, a critical examination of the policies of No Child Left Behind, and a highly critical look at the Constitutional record of our current administration. I'm just not used to being able to read since I've been off Adderall for so long, and now that I can I wonder if I'm overdoing it. It seems silly, but my head is beginning to swim, and that's the only possible reason I can come up with.
I don't think I'm spending enough time talking to people anymore. I'm tempted to say I miss being close to people, but upon further examination I can't seem to define the designation of close. I have great friends here, and I get along with all of my roommates splendidly. The reason I went off Adderall last year was because I realized – only after mistakenly going off it – I was slowly withdrawing from people on a personal level, and I didn't like that at all. Is that happening again? I vowed I wouldn't let it, because this time I was aware of it. But for some reason I still feel like I am, and the strange thing is I have little evidence to back that up. Meaning now I'm suspecting it's all in my head. Hmmmmmmmm.
Now I'm pretty sure I'm rambling, so I'm going to stop. I think I just need to talk with friends more. Whether we have discussions about the country's current Constitutional policies, debates on the merits of attempting to predict seemingly random and highly influential events, or chats about ice cream, doesn't matter. I just need to increase my personal contact with the good people I already have in my life. There. Done. Yay me.
Stated (loudly) in true Peanuts fashion: head tilted straight back nearly 45 degrees, mouth open to the size a grapefruit, tonsils (or tongue, never could figure out which) wiggling near the back of the throat. God bless Peanuts. Charlie Brown is my hero. Truly he is. Which is why this has been the desktop on my office computer for so long.
I am completely, utterly off today, and I do not know why. I've been running according to my schedule, and it's been going well. I logged 17.64 miles this week. I've been rockin' the Lake Shore trail, hardcore. I actually got nearly 7 hours of sleep last night, which is a bit more than I've been getting, but not so much as to significantly throw me off. I've been eating well, keeping in shape, etc. In other words, I am at a loss to explain my extraordinarily flighty brain functions today. I don't like that.
The only postulation I can formulate is that perhaps I've been too … inward facing? … as of late. I've been focused pretty heavily on training (as I don't really feel like injuring myself), working to keep my clean (so far so good!), and reading voraciously – on the bus to and from work, in my room, on the front porch, everywhere. At the moment I'm jumping around between 'The Black Swan' – a philosophy-based look at the practical sides and potential dangers of relying on predictions based upon the empirical data of inherently random events – 'Innovation Nation' – discussing how and why this country is slowly losing its place globally as the leader of innovation – and 3-4 Cato Institute reports on everything from current political language, the rise of doublespeak, a critical examination of the policies of No Child Left Behind, and a highly critical look at the Constitutional record of our current administration. I'm just not used to being able to read since I've been off Adderall for so long, and now that I can I wonder if I'm overdoing it. It seems silly, but my head is beginning to swim, and that's the only possible reason I can come up with.
I don't think I'm spending enough time talking to people anymore. I'm tempted to say I miss being close to people, but upon further examination I can't seem to define the designation of close. I have great friends here, and I get along with all of my roommates splendidly. The reason I went off Adderall last year was because I realized – only after mistakenly going off it – I was slowly withdrawing from people on a personal level, and I didn't like that at all. Is that happening again? I vowed I wouldn't let it, because this time I was aware of it. But for some reason I still feel like I am, and the strange thing is I have little evidence to back that up. Meaning now I'm suspecting it's all in my head. Hmmmmmmmm.
Now I'm pretty sure I'm rambling, so I'm going to stop. I think I just need to talk with friends more. Whether we have discussions about the country's current Constitutional policies, debates on the merits of attempting to predict seemingly random and highly influential events, or chats about ice cream, doesn't matter. I just need to increase my personal contact with the good people I already have in my life. There. Done. Yay me.
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